Well, it has been over a month since diagnosis, and Gus is still Gus, which is good. I read Help Your Dog Fight Cancer, by Laurie Kaplan, MSC, and it was helpful. By the time I got the book, I had already done so much research, I was already doing what she wrote. I did learn a few things about arranging things after... Which is my topic tonight.
It always lurks in my mind, Gus has Cancer, he is going to die. I mean, the anticipation of coming home... Sometimes, he has not met me at the door, and my heart starts pounding... I have vivid dreams, and I wake up afraid. How are we going to do this? How will I cope, while helping my daughter cope, and Mikey? Our dynamics will change. The Hol
e. It is already growing. We can't go hang out at the dog park, no more hikes, no more wrestling. Sometimes, he just sleeps for hours, and I wonder if I should wake him. Is that for him, or me? He does have days that seem as if he is almost fading, but then Gus will jump up, and ask for a Tug-of-War game. 
It is weird, surreal. I am contemplating w
riting a book...
e. It is already growing. We can't go hang out at the dog park, no more hikes, no more wrestling. Sometimes, he just sleeps for hours, and I wonder if I should wake him. Is that for him, or me? He does have days that seem as if he is almost fading, but then Gus will jump up, and ask for a Tug-of-War game. 
It is weird, surreal. I am contemplating w
riting a book...
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